identity

Written while I was attending Clearwater back in the fall.
I found this in my drafts.

"For some reason my identity is a big deal to me. I tend to identify myself with the books I read and movies I watch; the clothes I wear and the hobbies I enjoy. When people think of me I want them to think classy and simple, natural and pretty, kind and sweet but bold and straightforward. I've come up with this picture in my head of who I am and what I'm supposed to be. And college has challenged my "identity". I'm hanging out and living with people who are totally different than me and do things that I would never do; wear things I wouldn't wear; and talk about things I normally wouldn't. And it changes you. Not necessarily in a bad way, but adapting to a new way of life has changed me. I don't feel like myself anymore. But who I am was always based on external things, things that change with time and circumstance."

My dad just preached this Sunday on finding identity in Christ. I could have really used that when I was feeling this way months ago. It's hard to put your identity and worth in Christ when all these materialistic, sinful desires are in the way!